Tuesday, December 21, 2010

The Wonder of Christmas.

I wonder as I wander out under the sky,
How Jesus the Savior did come for to die.
For poor orn'ry people like you and like I...
I wonder as I wander out under the sky.

When Mary birthed Jesus 'twas in a cow's stall,
With wise men and farmers and shepherds and all.
But high from God's heaven a star's light did fall,
And the promise of ages it then did recall.

If Jesus had wanted for any wee thing,
A star in the sky, or a bird on the wing,
Or all of God's angels in heav'n for to sing,
He surely could have it, 'cause he was the King

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Don't lose your wonder at Christmas.
The Word became flesh,
God came as a child
to take the sins of the world.

Be amazed
Be in awe
But do not grow cold to Christmas.


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Saturday, December 18, 2010

What do I know of Holy?

"I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of Holy?"

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Friday, December 17, 2010


I am so ready to redo my room.
I have no idea what I was thinking when I painted it all red.
I have so many ideas of how I wanna do it but have no time.
An inspiration wall would be nice :)
anyone up for helping me redo my room?

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Monday, December 13, 2010


It has been a little over a month since the creation of the 9.5 theses
(written with a couple friends on Oct. 31st, 2010 in order to celebrate
reformation day and to make our own reformation)
We saw that our time together was not most profitable so we devised
a plan to help ourselves in this area.

This was the final product:
The 9.5 Theses of hanging out
(since we couldn't come up with 95)

1. Individual relationships must first be Christ-centered in order to have more quality time in group settings.
2. The primary purpose of any event should not be entertainment but rather edification.
3. It is crucial to come with a mindset of building up souls.
4. An unfocused atmosphere should not distract from the initial goal and mindset.
5. Pray together.
6. Awkwardness should not be feared in bringing up spiritual matters.
7. Find out what the plan for the event is beforehand. If possible, request an alteration of plans to make the time more profitable.
8. If the result of an event was undesirable, do not fail to bring it up with others in order to prevent contentment with ungodliness.
9. When Christ-centeredness is an outflow of our relationship with God, you will have “holy fun”.
9.5 Soli Deo Gloria!

Since that time, we have all been striving for more godliness in our time together
and God has just been blessing us! I am very encouraged to see the growth in everyone.
God really is the real 'satisfier' and joy-giver,
if He is not in my conversations I am not complete.

Thank you Jesus for your work in us!
Be glorified!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Here with us.

really enjoying this song
"It's still a mystery to me
That the hands of God could be so small,
How tiny fingers reaching in the night
Were the very hands that measured the sky
It's still a mystery to me, oh,
How His infant eyes have seen the dawn of time
How His ears have heard an angel's symphony,
But still Mary had to rock her Savior to sleep"

Thursday, December 9, 2010


another day another diptych

can you guess who's in the picture?


There was a time when I was obsessed with diptychs...I think every once in a while Ill post a diptych, old or new to keep that going...

Diptych•(dip'tik) - A painting done in two separate panels. Each part is a complete work in itself, but when presented together they form a larger fully integrated work.

I cant wait to take my camera up to the mountain this year :)

ps. I think Im just going to give up on trying to put bigger pictures up here..
I try so many different ways and Im just wasting time.. sorry =/ maybe one of these days ill figure it out...

oh and thanks to artem for the cool new header :)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Trust Him

my to do list has about 123978158719571046789 things on it and I only have 168 hours a week... minus the 2 hours of sleep(I have no clue how I found time to write this post).... so recently I have been a little overwhelmed I really thought I was going to die young and I started saying my goodbyes.. I felt so torn apart, there's so much work to do for the church, and then there's school work to do, and then there's work, and then applying for scholarships and colleges.. and not to mention trying to keep up with my friends and the Bible... and on top of it all my mom wants me spending more time in the kitchen and I have to be working on stuff for Yana's wedding... I was trying to keep all things under control but it was slowly breaking apart. I thought I could handle everything on my own...

A couple days ago I was listening to 93.9 in the morning and a preacher was talking about trusting God, then I finally got it. I have not been trusting God! I keep stressing out and thinking that I am in control when I am not at all, I listened to another sermon about it by Jerry Bridges that was also helpful in setting my mind straight. But then I find myself stressing out again with all the worries of life and I lack faith in the promises of God again... I found myself mindlessly singing along to Jadon Lavik's Tis So Sweet while stressing out and then finally I realized what words were coming out of my mouth:

"Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him!

How I've proved Him o'er and o'er

Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus

O for grace to trust Him more!"

I have no idea how I was able to sing that while stressing out but I see that it takes work to be always trusting in Jesus and it takes a deliberate conscious awareness of reality to keep my mindset correct.

Lord help me trust in you. Amen.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

old school

I love looking through my parents pictures
I scanned some in to share with you guys
Dont you just love these grannies? :)
The one in the middle is my grandma

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving night..

Happy Thanksgiving ya'll :)
I just wanted to say that I am thankful for all of my friends.
I love you guys and I am thankful to God that He has blessed me with an awesome life, an awesome church and awesome friends.
Hope you all enjoyed your turkey and are ready for some shopping tomorrow..
I just saw these deals on cds and thought I'd share...
Phil Wickham's Heaven & Earth cd, Over and Underneath by Tenth Avenue North, and Downhere's christmas cd are all great cds that I would recommend and they are all on sale for like 4 bucks... pretty good deal.

Oh and you can get 3 free songs on amazon with this code: "GET3MP3S"

Enjoy :)

Friday, November 19, 2010

As Long As You Are Glorified

Shall I take from Your hand Your blessings
Yet not welcome any pain
Shall I thank You for days of sunshine
Yet grumble in days of rain
Shall I love You in times of plenty
Then leave You in days of drought
Shall I trust when I reap a harvest
But when winter winds blow, then doubt

Oh let Your will be done in me
In Your love I will abide
Oh I long for nothing else as long
As You are glorified

Are You good only when I prosper
And true only when I’m filled
Are You King only when I’m carefree
And God only when I’m well
You are good when I’m poor and needy
You are true when I’m parched and dry
You still reign in the deepest valley
You’re still God in the darkest night

I won't complain I wont complain....
but I do miss you sunshine :(

Monday, November 15, 2010

Strangers And Pilgrims

One of those rare good Christian bands
and they're from Portland
Check out their facebook or listen to some of their music on their myspace
You guys should come with me to their concert on the 24th

cant wait to get the cd :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

night owl

why is it that I can spend all day trying to work on something but nothing gets done,
but as soon as its past 11pm I can easily write my 6 page rough draft about this:

I really don't understand how that works
But its not letting me have good sleeping habits

do you guys experience this?

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Dimarina :)

Finally some pictures from Marina's lovely wedding
oh and Kae & Allas cheesy wish :)

And here is the mastermind behind all this:

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Pretty Kae :)

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The lucky man...

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Thursday, October 28, 2010

the end...

is very very near.
its so crazy to see that this counrty is in so much debt that the problem can never be fixed.
its so crazy to learn what is going on in israel.
its so crazy to know that everything right now is lined up and ready for the antichrist to come
its so crazy that Christ can come this moment.

Be ready.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

торт Королевский :)

about to bake this deliciousness..
hope it turns out :)
meanwhile.. you guys should check out the website that this recipe is found on
its a Russian website and you have to convert all the measurements from russian measurements
but i think its worth it
i love making russian food :)


in love
with these photos
and these people :)

see them!

Im very happy for the two... I know they are absolutely perfect for each other.. Helping to plan a wedding and being able to be a part of it is exciting as well... But at the same time it is so sad.. This my sister.. The friend I've had for the longest time... The friend that has always been there.. and she will continue to be there for me.. But it will be different.. Its crazy how fast someone can just walk into a life and take your friend away... I know, I know.. it needs to happen.. Its a bittersweet feeling..

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


Yana and Vitaliy got their engagement photos done today
it was in such a magical location and the weather was amazing
i cannot wait until the pictures are up
we also got a kitten :)
and i lost my phone :(
here he is... he needs a name though..
we were thinking Ghandi.. but idk..
what do you think?

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

did some senior pictures today for a friend..
heres one i liked... maybe ill post some more later

goodnight world :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

love it.

I just love this image by You+We Photography so much
that I had to share it on here.
Oh and Jose got some new posts up that are unbelievably amazing as always.

Saturday, October 9, 2010


I am so excited to finally see this post up!
This was one of the cutest weddings done at an old barn
love the simplicity
Check out the full post here
enjoy :)


Wednesday, October 6, 2010


I am so thankful to God that He makes me feel miserable when I am without Him.
Although I despise the feeling, I know it is necessary to bring me back to Him.
At times I forget the gospel. I forget about His grace.
I go back to seek the pleasures of this world.
And again I find no joy.
Once again He turns me to Himself.

So I thank God that He alone is the sole giver of satisfaction.
Only in Him am I complete.
And no matter how many times I seek for pleasure in outside sources,
it will never be found.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Renew your mind and be broken
For the Word of God has spoken
Commanding us to love our neighbor
O, how I wish the church could savor
The goodness of the Lord’s plan
And understand how He became man
Taking on the flesh
O, please your minds refresh
Imitate Christ’s humility
To the best of your ability
For God will give you strength
To love to such a great length
To walk that extra mile
To bless another with your smile
There is a God above
Fill yourself up with His love
And pour it onto others
After all, we’re all sisters and brothers
Made to reflect His face
In this predestined place

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Just Ask.

"Oh, prayerless man, who and what are you that you will not ask anything of God? Have you made a covenant with death and hell? Are you at peace with the maggot and the fire? Have you no sins to be pardoned? Have you no fear of eternal torment? Have you no desire after heaven?Oh, that you would awake from your present folly! Oh, if only you would consider the coming end of your life! Oh, that you would rise up and call upon God! Yes, there is a day coming when men will pray loudly, 'Lord, Lord, let us in,' but all will be too late; when many will cry to the rocks to fall on them, and the hills to cover them, who would never cry to God. In all affection I warn you. Beware lest this be the end for your soul. Salvation is very near you. Do not lose heaven because you failed to ask." -J.C. Ryle

If you are in this position,
I pray for you.
Accept grace while it still exists.

God will return to judge.

Monday, September 27, 2010

grace vs. guilt

Grace is a much stronger motivation than guilt.
I fail so much in my life and I desire to change so many things.
Yet, so many times those changes don't come..
I was just reading over some of my super old chats.. (they can be pretty funny.. you guys should try it) and i read something very encouraging someone said to me once and it applies to me now once more.
It was the reminder that when I am guilt-motivated I will not get far, but when I am motivated by grace and the love of Jesus- that is what can sustain me and change me for real.
Be blessed.

dont complain.

be thankful.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

it works!

fixed the glitch i think...
you can now post comments on my blog :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

Sunday, September 19, 2010

The Almighty.

I wish I could always see Christ this way:

" I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse, and He who sat on it is called Faithful and True, and in righteousness He judges and wages war.His eyes are a flame of fire, and on His head are many diadems; and He has a name written on Him which no one knows except Himself. He is clothed with a robe dipped in blood, and His name is called The Word of God. And the armies which are in heaven, clothed in fine linen, white and clean, were following Him on white horses. From His mouth comes a sharp sword, so that with it He may strike down the nations, and He will rule them with a rod of iron; and He treads the wine press of the fierce wrath of God, the Almighty. And on His robe and on His thigh He has a name written, "KING OF KINGS, AND LORD OF LORDS."Then I saw an angel standing in the sun, and he cried out with a loud voice, saying to all the birds which fly in midheaven, "Come, assemble for the great supper of God,so that you may eat the flesh of kings and the flesh of commanders and the flesh of mighty men and the flesh of horses and of those who sit on them and the flesh of all men, both free men and slaves, and small and great." And I saw the beast and the kings of the earth and their armies assembled to make war against Him who sat on the horse and against His army.

And the beast was seized, and with him the false prophet who performed the signs in his presence, by which he deceived those who had received the mark of the beast and those who worshiped his image; these two were thrown alive into the lake of fire which burns with brimstone.And the rest were killed with the sword which came from the mouth of Him who sat on the horse, and all the birds were filled with their flesh." Revelation 19:11-21

I make God so small so often.
I don't see Him as the King returning in His glory.
Often I forget that He still rules the universe.
And I forget that He rules my life.
I am prone to think that the people in this world are so big,
and I start to think that God is weak.
My Christianity becomes weak
and I become ashamed to speak up about Christ
"He's not a baby in the manger no more
He's not a broken man on the cross
He didn't stay in the grave
and He's not staying in heaven forever..."

God is in control.
He is Almighty.
He is God.
and I resolve to not rob Him of His glory in my view of Him.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Cherry Closet.

Ran across a blog today that led me to this website.
I only wish I was brave enough to wear the stuff on there..
nonetheless, it has some lovely things such as...
this dusky pink pill box hator this lovely lace blouse
and especially this lacy parasol